Be still…God is working

I hope to share with you more of how God is working through Bird Leaf Ranch. Some will be about the progress of securing the physical location and some will be of the beautiful children He is sending to us.

The following shows how God is using Mariposa to remind our founder is using this precious baby to reassure us of His promises.

Exodus 14:14 The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.

🦋 Mariposa was the size of a dollar bill 💵 when she was born. She has overcome more health challenges already than anyone i personally know. She had a grade 4 bilateral IVH (the worst kind of hemorrhagic stroke you can have on both sides of her brain). So far, from what we can tell…she can’t eat and has a hard time staying warm. Her heart beats too fast and she breathes too fast sometimes. When i first saw her, her eyes were going two different directions…. i asked her nurse if she could see or hear. She said she didn’t know. I was scared. Truly. And that does not happen very often to me. But as soon as that fear came up and i cried out to God, i could feel a peace and assurance and the impression “yes, she has problems, but all that means is that she is a candidate for miracles, we will do this together.” I anointed her with oil and prayed over her. When i saw her on Monday, (i have vídeo of this) she opened her eyes and looked right at me. They’ve been straight and perfect ever since. I can’t stop looking at that video. It makes me choked up and my allergies start up …. unreal. She will be getting a feeding tube in a few days in Charleston and coming home. Today she ended up back in the isolette/baby incubator because her temperature dropped and wouldn’t come back up. She has been so calm and patient. She recognizes me every day when she sees me and is calm and happy the whole time I’m with her. She is ok with being still because she knows i can handle everything. She trusts me to provide all of her needs and care for her. Completely. I trust God to provide all of my needs and care for me… and my children. Completely. I’ve learned – practically- through Mariposa’s brave composure that, by being still, everything occurs exactly how it should, when it should. When that happens, we are able to reach our full potential in Christ. These days i am experiencing something new. A gift. Relishing each moment and each day. Not missing anything and seeing God more in details. Thank you, God for the gift of Mariposa and the lessons she has already taught me. ❤️🦋

Messages from God

It is 4:34am and I have yet to be able to sleep tonight. It’s also been a long time since I have written anything. I have been through quite a lot of stuff. But that’s another story for another day.

James 1:27
Religion that is pure and undefiled before God the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world.

This verse appeared to me everywhere when God began laying on my heart that He was sending me on a mission trip. James 1:27 and either the word Africa, a picture, or even a TV show having to do with Africa. I listened, then I followed. I followed all the way to Kitale, Kenya during the summer of 2012.

I’ve thought off and on, since 2012, that God stopped talking to me. I’ve come to realize lately that He never stopped talking to me; I have believed the lie that I wasn’t worthy of God’s time, and if I did feel worthy, I would not be still or fully trust that He has a plan and it is for me to prosper.

I have 2 more chemo treatments before scans. It has been my plan to move back out on my own after that last treatment. Now that I’m done crocheting Christmas gifts, I was talking to a friend the other day about donating baby blankets to her foster babies. In the conversation I mentioned that if she heard of a room/apartment/house for rent to please let me know and continued to tell her my plan. She asked me a couple of questions (can you climb stairs, etc) and I thought nothing of it until she asked me a few minutes later if I would consider moving in with her.

I’ve only seen my friend a handful of times. We met at a bible study for divorced people. So she really doesn’t know me from Adam’s house cat. She told me she was moving soon and had plenty of room and that God told her to ask me to move in. The next message told me she’d send me a link to the house…the huge house.

Why so big, I wondered, and then she sent me a link to her foundation (I’ll include the link below). When the link came up in my chat box I saw it right away…my new mission assignment. Yes, the link icon, as well as the front page of the website, showed all I needed to know – James 1:27!

My mission assignment is to help with orphans, again. This time for more than 14 days. This time I’ll get to watch them grow, teach them, love them. I told my friend my James 1:27 story and we’ve been like peas’n’carrots since then. Ideas I would ask her about she already had in the works or thankful that I knew something about it. Like my craft side that can be utilized to handmade items for the onsite store, mucking horse stalls and general husbandry for horses (I love everything about horses, even their poop). She also reminded me that I still need to heal, but has been encouraging in reference to all ideas I’ve had.

I guess if I had to have a point other than how great our God is and that we should never give up on God because He hasn’t given up on us, it would be that even the simple mundane task can be used to further God’s great wish for our lives…to take care of the orphans.

Here is the link to my next mission assignment: Bird Leaf Ranch

no doubt

There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears {Pilippians 1:6 The Message}

What a beautiful way to tell us God will never leave us.


day 17 {worship}

For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them. Matthew 18:20

How blessed I am to spend time in worship this morning with these women. God has definitely been here in this place!


day 16 {laughter}

Today I have laughed until I cried. We have also cried until someone had to make us laugh.

Sometimes you just have to be silly. It is very easy to be silly with the 5 people I am spending the weekend with. I wish we had a video camera of the 1.3 mile trip to Dickens Christmas show today. 6 of us in the car and YAYA Speedy at the wheel.

Thank you Lord for friends and laughter.

day 14 {tonya}

As iron sharpens iron, so one friend sharpens another…Proverbs 27:17

Therefore, confess your sins to one another, so that you may be healed. The urgent request of a righteous person is very powerful in its effect…James 5:16

Do you have a friend in Christ that helps hold you accountable? My friend’s name is Tonya. We have been friends for a little while, but the Walk to Emmaus has made us sisters in Christ. We have shared our deepest, darkest secrets with each other, and still love each other anyway. We share a lot of the same insecurities, and are a constant encouragement to each other. 

This week I have been in somewhat of a little funk. This morning I get a text from Tonya before 7:00am telling me she can’t wait to share how God has answered a prayer. She stated that she had forgotten that all she had to do was ask Him. Well, God worked through her text to make me realize that I haven’t been taking the things I have been carrying around on my own to Him this week. So I began to pray about what I have been carrying.

When I read her blog this morning, it was further proof that God uses her to encourage me. It was like she was writing about me even though she did not at the time know all of the things I  have been carrying around. As I read the Proverbs 31 blog today, it was obvious what God was telling me – thank Tonya for being your “person.”

So thank you Tonya, for listening, not judging, and praying for me.

day 13 (salsa)

Today I am thankful for homemade salsa. Yes, seems very strange after the type of posts I have been sharing. Today however, it’s the simple things I have been thinking about.

I am thankful for the friend that shared the recipe for this salsa.

I am for the family time we had when I made the salsa last night.

I am thankful for the friend I shared it with today.

All because a little salsa…


  • 1 14oz can diced tomatoes (I usually drain about half the liquid out)
  • 1 10oz can original Rotel
  • ½ small onion, roughly chopped (I usually just cut the half in half)
  • ½ – 1 jalapeno, seeded or not depending on how spicy you like it (today I used jalapeno from the jar because I didn’t have a fresh one)
  • 1 tsp honey
  • ½ tsp salt
  • ¼ tsp cumin
  • Cilantro (optional – I hate cilantro so I never put this in)
  • Juice of 1 lime

 Put all ingredients in food processer and pulse a few times, then blend for 30 seconds or so.


day 12 {loving the unloveable}

Today I am thankful that God never stops loving us. Even when we don’t deserve it. It is hard to remember that God loves us when we let the world in our heads. How easily I can send myself into a place where I feel unworthy. The person that cut me off in traffic, the CSR that doesn’t speak English supporting a product in the US, discussing grades with your teenage son, not being able to use my left arm. Why is it that some days this stuff bothers me and others I can just let it go? Is God with me more on some days that others? No! 

I guess the Lord knew we would have days like this. Today is one of those days for me, and I am beyond thankful that God still loves me today. I haven’t gone around cursing people out loud or screaming from my drivers seat. But my thoughts have not been too kind in certain situations today. 

I am thankful that God uses music, and especially my friends to remind me I am not the only one that gets bogged down in junk and that God will love me through it an beyond!

day 11 {freedom}

Have you had your serving of freedom today?



That was the caption of my friend Lucien’s picture. I borrowed it from him on Facebook. This young man risks his life for our freedom. He risks his life for people that he doesn’t even know. Have you thanked someone that protects our freedoms today?